Home?

I have not been on good terms with my parents for quite some time. I would not like to talk about it because it is not a good thing to share, but it has been taking a toll on me. I avoid going home before they sleep. Even if I do, I would keep quiet, and retreat to my personal space in my room.

I wish I am staying on my own. No conflicts. Peace.

A very bad week.

I hate coming to work this entire week. And I think it would be the same for the coming weeks. Period.

Terrible headache

It was one of the worst nights I ever had to go through. The headache last night was terrible. It happened so suddenly and it was so painful that I couldn't sleep. The throbbing pain was absurdly driving me crazy. I felt like I was going to die.

So coincidental that I had no painkillers in the house. Great.

I bore with the pain through the night, and went to the doctor in the morning. She couldn't give me an exact diagnosis, she said I could be stressed, or due to the caffaine intake, but I don't think that was convincing enough. I was given painkillers, and a day of MC. Sadly I had to get back to work in the afternoon, and the MC went half-wasted.

I'm still having mild headache now, even after taking my medication. I hope there's nothing wrong with me.

De-sian sessions needed.

I'm experiencing mixed feelings of frustration, resentment and depression.

De-sian sessions needed.

No more OCBC Cycle

One day, there was a girl (an idiot for one) named Yuhui. She was supposed to go for the OCBC Cycle challenge on this day and she was rather excited about it.

The day before the challenge, all her friends were discussing about the reporting time. The flag-off time was scheduled at 6am, which would have meant that all of them would need to report at around 5am, which would also imply that she would need to leave the house by 4am. Everyone was afraid that they wouldn't be able to wake up on time, and she even joked that she might not sleep after all.

And as usual, when she got home at night, she went to watch her Filipino shows and played her daily Killer Sudoku. At around 12+am, she decided to catch some sleep. She set her alarm, and then sank into her bed.

At 3am, she stirred up and checked the clock. Thinking to herself, she could have another 30 mins of sleep and she went back to bed.

The next thing she knew, it was already 6am and she had 26 missed calls on her mobile phone. She was so irritated with herself, for being such a pig and an idiot. Then she realised that she had set the alarm wrongly. 3.30am on the weekday mode. BAMZ.

At that moment, she really wished she could do something to vent her anger and frustration. A run, a photoshoot, or something. She saw her work file on the table, and started doing her meeting minutes.

She regretted her stupidity, and couldn't wait to be away from this country.

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'Good service'?

I'm not cut to be a service-oriented working individual.

Don't expect me to go all out to offer something called 'good service'. And I believe only rational and reasonable people deserve 'good service'.

Down with a sore throat

Just when I'm trying to enjoy myself to the max here in Bago City, I'm down with a sore throat that I didn't even want to eat anything, because swallowing is just too painful.

I hate it. I'm just praying that this is not a prelude to a fever.

Wanna hack people up again

Once again, I feel like hacking people up. But I'm already exhausted.

I can't wait for my Christmas to come.

Arghh

I want to hack people up. I just want to.

Storm has approached

Just before the 'event of the year' kick off tomorrow, the storm approached and caused a massive destruction.

Perhaps I was right, I knew something would go wrong. Murphy's Law.

I'm now afraid of my phone ringing, messages buzzing. I couldn't sleep well, I lost my appetite.

Hearing Christmas tunes on the radio and on tv, I just hope that it's Christmas now. Nasaan ang Pasko ko?

Stressed

Stress level is building up, so is fatigue and exhaustion.

Very soon, it's the time for the 'event' of the year. Somehow, there's a tinge of uneasiness lingering around. The peace before the storm is very scary.

I need to ensure I have enough stock of my chocolates and coke. I wished for Starbucks delivery.

It's time.

Bad start to CNY

5 minutes of total embarrassment.

This Chinese New Year sucks. Totally.

Fireworks in Bago City

On the night of the New Year, Bago City had a 15-minute long of musical fireworks display, blasting off to the rhythm of Sarah Brightman, George Frideric Handel and Eloy (I have no idea who the two latters are).

One of the highlights of the show was the 50-metre 'waterfall' fireworks at the centre of the football field of the Manuel Y. Torres Sports Centre near TDLC, where I've stayed for 24 days on my first visit to Bago City. *aww.. memories..*

And why am I missing out all these??? I could have easily gotten a VIP seat and happily snapping at the fireworks with my toy!! ARGHHH!!

For the full news, it's here.

sabbatical

it's a Sunday. I'm in the office.

I need to go on a sabbatical.

miserable

miserable, is the only word that could describe my feelings right now.

when I cried the last time, I was grieving and mourning over the passing of Ah Gong. now, I don't understand why am I feeling so horrible, and why should I deserve this.

I've not felt so miserable over work before. the work has always been stressful, but I've been taking it in my stride. there were many down moments, but I've tried standing up on my feet again. there is a limit to what I can handle, and I suppose I've reached that.

many times when I'm threatened, to be deprived of my wishes to be back in Bago City, I told myself, I can handle it. I blame myself for not putting enough effort, for not managing things well. I tried my best to recify problems, but there is only this much I could do.

I don't know if this is called a 'consequence', this is not something that I would want. you do not threaten me with something I hold on dearly to.

I know this is not going to be the last time. it will not be the last time until the day I complete whatever I need to do. I can be evil, I can leave and leave all problems lying unresolved. but I won't do that.

I shall wait for the day I leave for greener pastures.

valentine's day..

"teacher, today is valentine's day leh.. can end tuition earlier?"

"you got a valentine meh?"

"no lar, but i think you got a valentine mah.."

"if i have one, i won't be sitting here, having my dinner with you on your tuition table.."

happy valentine's day to all the lovey-dovey couples out there, and happy friendship day to everyone!! =D

and what a great way to start the day, with a 8am lecture and a not-so-interesting lecturer.. arghh.. pleeeaase.. you won't get an explosion by mixing dilute hydrochloric acid with dilute sodium hydroxide.. but thanks to temogen, who woke me up with his v day message.. haha..

and then news of my friend's brother passing away came.. joseph, i hope that you are ok now.. you have always been a fatherly figure to me, i know you are strong.. and i hope that things are going ok for you.. =)

thanks biyun, the chocolates came just right in time.. hehe..

and i realised that i didn't really have time to sit down, relax, let my mind settle down, or even have a sip of juice (coffee is bad for a good sleep at night.. haha).. i was running places to places while in school, having tuition.. and my handphone kept beeping and reminding me of all the things i need to settle.. it has become another handy reminder alarm clock for me.. haha..

but thank god a piece of good news brought a nice end to the day.. i'm chosen to receive an award in Bago City!! whee!!! i don't expect to get rewarded, other than friendship and inspiration, for doing all the charity work.. but then, it's this coming sunday, and it's the first day of chinese new year.. i will get killed by my parents if i were to go.. awww.. how i wish i have a clone of me right now..

talking about new year, i have no time to do my new year shopping! arghh.. everyday is so packed, with days ending as late as 10pm.. how to shop? arghh..

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support my performance tomorrow! 7.30pm at marina square.. presenting to you some chinese new year music by NUSCO!! =)

support NUSCO annual concert!! 11 march 2007, sunday, 5pm at UCC.. =) get tickets from me!!

busy..

there goes my reputation as a responsible tutor.. arghh.. blame the agent, i did not agree to the new assignment, but she told the parents that i would be there.. and it so happened that they are the neighours of my kids.. and my kids' mum called to ask me what happened.. -_-""

but still, it's the agent's fault! how could she tell the parents that i accepted the assignment when i didn't agree to anything?? worse still, i was not given any contact number or address, so where am i suppose to go to teach?? arghh..

oh well, i may not have time for the new student anyway.. haha..

and i've got a part-time job, working in CFA, doing those nitty gritty things like tearing labels and removing plastic covers from books.. it's ok to be paid for doing brainless jobs.. because i need my brain cells for other things.. haha..

anyway, a little story from Bago City.. =)



this was taken during the christmas party (19 Dec 2006) at Astro Farm Day Care and Elementary School.. we were playing games with the kids, and in this game, they had to form the longest line with whatever they have on them..

because they only had simple clothing on them, all they could use were their shoes and their clothes.. even if the prizes were only candies and simple toys, they wanted them so much, because they were really that attractive to them.. they wanted to win so much, that the boys took off all their clothes, including their undies.. even the girls were half-naked.. but of course the boys' team won.. =)

and all of us really had a good time, laughing and playing along with them.. =) another interesting fact about this photo, it became 2nd most viewed photo (54 views!!) after only 3 days of uploading it to flickr.. haha.. and you are going to wonder what is the most viewed photo.. haha..

and hello to everyone in Bago!! =) i miss all of you, i really do.. hope everybody's doing fine there.. and like what tricia said, i should be back, to make everybody happy, especially papa.. haha.. don't worry, i've been thinking about my next trip already.. hopefully it will happen.. *cross my fingers* so pray for me too!! love you guys!! =)

lack of sleep..

the last time i didn't sleep for a night, was during my preparation for exams last semester.. that was about 5 months ago.. now the vicious cycle is coming back.. and i couldn't take it.. >_<"" i was rushing one stoopid lab report last night, and i didn't catch a wink.. and i felt so terrible in school.. wanted to sleep, but yet had to force myself to keep awake.. worse still, today's lessons were from 10am to 6pm.. non-stop.. no proper time to rest, no proper meal.. i could only get 10 minutes of sleep during the break of Prof Ip's lecture.. oh man, that was so pathetic..

and the rest of October is going to be a killer.. more reports, more assignments, more tests, and my kids' exams too.. arghhhhh..

enough of ranting..

everytime when people scold somebody else "cuckoo bird", it means that poor person is stupid.. but do you know that cuckoo birds are actually a smart bunch of birds? they practise something called "boot parasitism", where the mother cuckoo bird will replace her eggs in some other birds' nests, and let some other birds to take care and feed her babies together with theirs..

now, the smart thing is, when the baby cuckoo bird is hatched from the egg, it will push the other birds' unhatched eggs out of the nest!!! wah!! get rid of competitors in this way.. smart right??

so now you know, cuckoo birds are not stupid.. and never use "cuckoo bird" to scold people stupid.. haha..

injured elbow..

i am one injured soldier going to walk into a battlefield with only one arm..



my elbow hurts so much that i had to go and see a doc.. i can't even bend it.. with some rubbing and cracking and my first-time acupuncture, now it's slightly better, but i don't dare to overexert it..

i don't mind spraining my ankle or hurting my legs *choy!* but having an injured arm is definitely much more troublesome.. everything i do i have to take double the time.. simple things like wearing my shirts or feeding myself i can't even do it as swiftly as i used to.. now how i wish i'm a left-hander..

how to write exam essays with my arm like that.. arghh.. can i bring in a laptop to the exam hall and type it out instead???

sleepless night..

this was taken this morning at freaking 6+ am.. the sun was just about to rise to shine on all the butts of sleepy pigs.. haha.. took this while i was cooking my tasteless maggi mee.. apparently i didn't catch a wink for the whole night, and there was utterly nothing for me to eat.. no bread, no biscuits, no milk for my cornflakes.. arghh.. i had a scoop of peanut butter though, but of course that was not enough, and i don't want to get gastric pains before a test..

but in the end, i couldn't hold out, and fell asleep at 8+ am, only to wake up at 1+ pm.. and of course, i didn't finish studying.. haha.. aiya, 32 MCQs, tikam power lar..

but then the questions were damn hard manz.. and that prof chang, most of his questions were "choose the incorrect sentence" type.. yucks.. 5 choices leh, how to choose.. you are making things difficult manz..

very tired, but so many things to do.. i don't have many "yuhui"s to share the burden you know..