Saturday, May 26, 2012
It's May already!
Long time no see. Haha. Labels: random
As usual, I've been busy with work since I came back from the Philippines in April. The new project is making me not able to multi-task as efficiently as I would like myself to be. And I'm not even halfway through completing it. Sigh.
It was good to meet up with old friends, gossipping and reminiscing of the good old times. Been hearing wedding bells ringing, and they will keep on ringing for the coming years. It's 'the' phase of life. My Facebook wall will then be flooded with wedding photos, and then soon, baby photos. Haha.
Not quite sure how often would I write on this blog again, I still love penning down my thoughts, but sometimes I'm either too tired, but most of the time, too lazy. Ha. TV is still my best friend. But I'll still try to write, perhaps at least whenever I return from my travels.
And till then. :)
dreamt at..10:34 AM
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
17 days in paradise
17 days in a place I call home.
It was supposed to be a much deserved break, but I left for the Philippines with a heavy heart. Things happened at work, which made me felt that despite the fact that nothing is fair in this world, I deserve something better.
Things wasn't going smooth either for the children's workshops in the schools in the mountain areas. It took everybody by surprise when I had an emotional outburst one night. I have never cried so hard for the past 8 years in Bago City, and even if I had encountered problems, they would only hear occassional rantings from me. I guess it was an accummulation of all problems and the stress I was going through, that resulted in the outburst.
I never like sharing my problems with the whole world, but I am thankful that I have friends there who are always ready to lend me their ears. A hug, a pat on the shoulders, it's comforting.
After this experience, I'm giving second (or maybe more) thoughts on working with groups again.
I had 1 week to unwind from all the stress and problems, I gave enough quiet moments to myself, and spent time with friends. I went out to the sea, swam with the fish and corals, and watched the sunsets. We even spotted a blue dot stingray while snorkelling in Carbin Reef in Sagay. A few of the many reasons why I'm loving it there in the Philippines.
dreamt at..11:09 AM
Friday, March 16, 2012
Everything is just not going right
Or rather, nothing is going right.
dreamt at..4:54 PM
Monday, February 27, 2012
哭了
好久没有这样，哭到累了睡着。。 Labels: moody
也不太记得上一次是什么时候。。是因为在工作上被一大堆乐谱压得喘不过气来吗？那好像是好几年前的事了。3年前阿公去世时，我也没有这样，因为人老了终究会离开，都坦然地面对。
这几个星期都没有好好地休息过，也把一些不好的情绪压抑着。我知道最近我的压力指数在升高，有太多的东西要兼顾。但是绝不是因为工作，因为我相信我已看得很开，而且老板也知道他给我的任务也不简单，他也看到我也正在努力着。
导火线就在昨晚把所有的情绪給爆发出来。
有些事情，让我很费解。如果想做事，但却有很多怨言，出发点到底是什么？大家不就是也在努力着吗？第一次想到回“家乡”，却觉得是累的，有点心灰意冷。
我也不想多说什么。了解的人，看到的人，自然会明白。
我曾经对友人说过，我表面上坚强，是不想让别人看到我脆弱的一面。我就继续忍着，反正事情过去了，大家就回到各自的生活里，互不干涉。
只要对得起自己就好。
放心，哭完了，平静了。
dreamt at..11:08 PM
Friday, February 24, 2012
It's almost end of February??
I'm once again overwhelmed with work, the volunteer project in Bago City, and whatever not. It's back to the days of burying myself in piles of music scores, but this time round, it's together with the dictionary and all the Italian terms.
I felt I was mugging like a student once again. Ha.
The stress level must be on its way to hit the sky, unfortunately. I've been drowning myself with more coffee (I wish for free Starbucks everyday, including on weekends), sighing and ranting more often. I lose my temper much more easily, and I yearn to reach out to my inner peace at the end of the day, late at night. And after that I get insomnia, and couldn't wake up in the morning. A very bad vicious cycle.
If only there were 48 hours in a day.
One thing to keep me sane though, it's Korean pop songs. Ah, I know you are going to say that I'm intoxicated again with K-pop. Haa. I just went on a K-drama soundtracks and CDs shopping spree online a few weeks back. Oops. Haha. And recently I've been high on the songs by FT Island and CN Blue. I'm amazed by Lee Hongki of FT Island, he always sings with so much emotions, even if he has to sing them every few days when they go around promoting the songs on the various K-pop music charts.
These 2 songs by FT Island have been on constant replays on my player. Good songs linger in my mind. And I'm sharing the good songs. :)
That Person in Shinsadong
Severely
dreamt at..12:25 AM
Thursday, February 02, 2012
龙年到！
这个新年，来得特别快。十二月圣诞节才刚过不久，农历新年一堆红彤彤、咚咚锵的东西到处都是。 Labels: random
我不是特别喜欢过年，因为我本来就不太喜欢热闹。我没有应酬的本能，就算是久未碰面的亲戚也聊不上几句。当然，大家都在“嘘寒问暖”地问一些客套话。工作了四年还有人以为我还在念书，应该要感谢我这张“童颜”般的脸孔。
大家也对我的感情生活特别有兴趣。而我的对策是以静为答。感谢大家的关心了。哈。
不过今年的新年过得还算平静，年初一睡到下午12点才起床，只到外婆家拜年，都住在同一座，
不必盛装打扮穿新衣。我甚至能把一部偶像剧看完（之后又中了偶像剧的毒），这样的新年，我喜欢。哈哈。
接下来的几个月，会忙着工作上的新任务和出国义工的事。希望能有一些喘气的空间，就算只是坐下来静静地喝杯咖啡也好。
突然想起，今年有好多华乐曲子特别适合演奏，如，《龙腾虎跃》、《龙的传奇》。哈哈。新的一年，新的展望。祝大家事事顺心、如意！
dreamt at..1:08 AM
Tuesday, January 03, 2012
Entering 2012
2012 has crept in, much to my reluctance. The past 365 days had gone too soon, and honestly speaking, I really can't recall any significant events that took place for the past year. Except for the fact that I flew back to the Philippines 4 times in a year. Ha. Labels: thoughts
And the date with Piolo. :D
The trip back to Malaysia for the Qing Ming Festival was worth cherishing, it has been quite a long while since I met my relatives there, and I never knew that I have step-aunts, not to mention seeing them and hearing the exciting stories of their days in the jungles during the communist war.
Interestingly, the intoxication from Korean dramas has its unexpectedly lasting effect on me. Haha.
Of course, as time passes, people come and go. I enjoyed all the get-togethers with old classmates, and I am thankful for the company of friends dearest to me. I will miss the ones who left for a better place, and will try to look on the bright side, for people who chose to walk out of my life.
With the new year already trickling in and away, I just wish for peace and happiness, with lots of good company with friends. :) No new year resolutions for me, because I don't want to stress myself, and most probably I won't be able to keep to them. Haha.
Hope 2012 will be an awesome year for all of us!
dreamt at..1:02 AM