birthday party..

went for melissa's birthday party earlier on.. together with some YEP mates.. and i just got home.. quite tiring, the journey back home was quite long.. it was at changi, but was thankful that ryan drove me home..

it was fun seeing them.. especially for some whom i have not seen for quite a period of time.. like anna, meiyee, luke.. it was like a mini-YEP gathering.. haha.. hopefully we will still be close even after years.. haha..

was thinking about birthday parties.. i never really had a birthday party before.. only when i was young, when i don't know what's happening in the world.. and i never really had a birthday cake ever since primary school days.. but i'm really glad there are people out there remembering my birthday, giving me surprises occasionally (just like last year's, when kaiwen and aline & co. popped 2 birthday cakes out for me.. haha).. but for most of the time, it was only me and myself on my birthday.. for me it's just another normal day, just that i will be older every year.. and i guess i won't have a celebration on my 21st birthday.. because my birthday will always be in the midst of exam preparation.. oh well.. glad to know that there are people out there who remember me as a friend..

another day..

today was kinda happening.. with good things and bad news.. hmm.. let's talk about the good ones first..

yar.. shujun's back from australia! but leaving tomorrow night.. haha.. went to meet her and rosanne in town after work.. =) i think she's one of the luckier people i've known.. able to study abroad with full support from parents.. sigh.. how i wish i could be like that too.. oh well.. took neoprints (the last time i took was like ages ago..) and went home.. haha.. because i wanted to catch MANHUNT!! haha.. managed to get a necklace for my thai friend too, and i would need the help of tingting to pass it to her during her holiday in thailand.. hehe.. hope that she would like it.. =)

and now the bad one.. keep hearing people getting hospitalised, dying.. and i just got the news today that ryan's (the one in philippines) mum has passed away last month.. it's a sad thing to hear it, especially when it was from his friend, temogen..

he has been very strong.. he was trying very hard to earn and save money for his mum's medical fees.. yet perhaps lady luck wasn't on his side.. he lost his job as a teacher in january, unable to find another job.. only depends on teaching dance to earn maybe a wee bit of allowance.. and he has a family to take care of.. and he was the one who encouraged me to keep on smiling..

i was speechless for a moment.. i wished that i could help him in one way or another, i wished that i could be there in philippines right now.. to be by a dear friend's side, encouraging him.. just like the way he used to encourage me.. but the only thing i could do is.. to send messages to him every now and then.. hoping that he would cheer up..

i guess he won't be seeing this.. but i really hope that he could get over the loss of someone close to him, continue to lead his life as he would, continue to be strong and keep on smiling.. and i know he will, and he can.. =)

at least i know now that he's alright, and found his love.. =) i'm happy for him.. hope that he's smiling right now..

japanese drama..

manz.. i miss watching japanese dramas.. don't u people find japanese guys cute?? haha.. but that's not the main point.. haa.. i'm more of a j-pop person rather than a k-pop one.. so u hardly get to catch me watching those soapy korean dramas.. haha..

anyway, back to the topic.. yar.. i miss watching japanese dramas.. it has really been a long time since i really follow a jap drama all the way.. blame it on the irregular lifestyle i'm leading.. tsktsk.. so i was watching this "Emergency Room 24 Hours" earlier on.. reminds me of the days when i used to go ga-ga over japanese guys.. haha.. but i really enjoy watching jap dramas, especially those related to the medical field.. =) the only time i can continue dreaming about my aspirations.. haha..

yar, don't laugh.. i wanted to be a doctor.. too bad my results are too sucky (partly because i'm the lazy type) and that makes me jealous of the doctors and i can only dream of being one, like those in the dramas.. haha.. sometimes the story plots could be very-the-drama, but i think they just wanted to bring out the sense of hope and love in everyone.. =)

maybe i'll try geting to somewhere near my aspiration, perhaps by being a health-care worker.. but i really don't know what lies in front of me.. it all depends.. i really don't know.. think my future looks bleak.. i just want to go on more expeditions around the world helping the poor.. possible?? hmm...

into another frenzy..

school has yet to start.. CORS bidding has yet to begin.. but we, the life science students are into another round of frenzy..

we have just received an email telling us our allocated modules.. because we were divided into 2 different groups, taking different core modules, so we assumed the groups will remain unchanged until the 3rd year when we start to choose our areas of concentration.. but then.. it didn't turn out that way!! some of the people in my group whom i know got the modules different from me.. biyun got the same modules as me, but kareen and mark got the other modules.. damn.. sucky siah..

luckily i managed to find someone willing to mutual swap with kareen.. if not us the 3 musketeers would be separated.. =P.. but everything's not confirmed yet..

arghh.. i hate the school system.. bleahz